December 2020

There were 2 posts published in December 2020 (this is page 1 of 1).

Journal Entry 014

Reminiscing is fun.

I had a nice long chat with a friend with high school not too long ago. Somehow we were both able to discuss memories from our elementary and middle schools. Those times were so influential to me. I feel that they focused on our growth. High school was different for me though. I felt that I was being trained to check boxes of a good college applicant. Those years did have their moments however it was more with the people than the school itself.

Now that I am in college I realized how trapped I really was. I am a business major now however that only happened a week before classes began. The sudden switch came along when I realized I wanted freedom of creativity. This course helped me realize that more. In this course I am free to express and interpret things in anyway I see fit which I am grateful for.

I was a very creative child. I drew, I sang, I danced, I acted. Not professionally in anyway, these were all school productions, however I loved it. In college I was given the chance to express that side of me again. I want to continue down this route of creativity. Hopefully throughout my college experience I can embrace it more and more.

Journal Entry 013

Nearing the end of my first college semester I am feeling reluctant to accept.

Throughout this semester several factors have made this time like no other. First of this is my first year in college. The second, more impacting factor, is it being in the midst of a pandemic.

College is different. You have to me more self-reliant in areas such as time management and studying. It did not take me too long to adjust to my schedule however managing the timeline of assignments took me a while. They were all given on time however, too close to call for me personally. I am not too bad with studying however, missing just a fraction of a lecture can leave you completely lost. Sometimes I have to look things over in my personal time to have it make sense.

Online schooling because of quarantine has been an experience of highs and lows. I was initially happy because who would want to go in-person to a 6:00 pm class? Then I realized how disconnected I felt. Due to my reluctance to show my face sometimes I just take classes in bed which causes me to feel less in the moment. I cannot wait to sit back in a class room. I don’t have personal conversations with classmates so despite learning amongst one another for the entire semester I wouldn’t recognized most of them. It feels like a disservice to not get to know these people. In this class especially I appreciated a lot of opinions shared and I would have liked getting to know them more. This also goes to my amazing Professors! They all seem so nice and I would have liked to have more one on one conversations.

Overall I feel I have experienced growth. Growth and acceptance. I have grown from the amazing conversations that I did have, from all of the works I have read and from acknowledging my mistakes. I have come to accept that things are different and it is okay. I accept me for who I am despite the challenges that I may face.

I appreciate this course. It reunited me with my love for literature. This course made me embrace my creative side again. In this course I learned about understanding others. Because of this course I made a new friend.

I think I had a pretty good semester.